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Sitting in the USO in Philedelphia, PA waiting for my flight at 01:57 a.m. is quite boring when my flight doesnt leave until 06:45 a.m. I cannot believe that the airlines dont open until 04:30 a.m., it's so rediculous, it's an international airport and they are closed. HAH what is this world coming to. 6 days leave will be great. I cant wait to see Josh and Emilee and the kids. And of course My Parents. I really feel like I need a full body massage right now. So damn sore from the training we've been doing the last few months. Its almost as if we never get enough sleep or rest to help our bodies recover from the strain. Iraq will definitely be a new experience and a hard one too. I never imagined myself here especially at my age. Everyone thinks I look 12 because of how short and tiny I am. lets thank grandma for that, at 4ft8 she seems to be shrinking a few inches a year. Theres that joke again on how shes gonna disappear soon. And she thinks shes fat, I had to laugh when the doctor said she had not an ounce of body fat on her and that why herdiabetes wasout of wack..My fellow soldiersare interesting and by far are going to be a goodfamily for the next year or so. Its kinda strange how such a mixture can bond so well. Whats funny is that I'm in the Philly airport but have never actually been to Philedelphia before. Seems to be happening to me more than I relaize. I get to say I was in this such city or that one because I flew to the airport and so on. My nephew tried to pronounce my name a few day ago, it was garbly but cute. I cant wait til he calls me on the phone on accident. My brother has his hands full, its amazing what kids can do to you. He's so happy and content. Now I guess It's my turn to find something that makes me feel happy and content. Doesnt even have to be happy...just content. I guess I'll continue to explore my options for my future. I still would like to try and go JAG but I dont care about the rank. and the reserves will try and make a specialist out of me yet. It wasnt the rank that I went into the military for, it was the fact that I could make a difference and help people. Well I guess I'll continue that stream of thought another day, I'm gonna try to catch some shuteye before havig to fly almost 5 hrs to Salt Lake. End 02:15 a.m.

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annisfavored 52, Female, Arizona, USA - 22 entries

Aug 2007
7:05 AM MDT

I Am Grateful That:

I have great Biblical teaching.
I have Biblical books to read.
I have creativity because of the Holy Spirit in me.
I have God's grace.
I am blessed with the blessings of Abraham.

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martytx07 37, Male, Texas, USA - 53 entries

Aug 2007
5:19 PM CST

Ok, so let me see...nothing really intersting has happened since my idol thingie. I told people at work that I made it and we just had a laugh about it. I told them I couldn't sing but they still wanted to hear me. I didn't want to sing at the freaking grocery store so I didn't...I'm too loud, haha. Man, one of the dudes is so freaking cute. I mean, he is like freaking hot! What I would do with him if the chance came along but I think he's straight...well I'm almost sure he's straight but dang, he's freaking sexy! He seems like he flirts somewhat...well I'm probably just imagineing it but like he was like, "Dang, you can't say hi, I see how it is. What? You can't talk to me? What does my breath stink? Do I stink? Do my feet stink?" I was like, "Well I noodded my head to you, that means like what's up." But yeah, to me it was like a little flirtacious but I was thinking to myself, "Man, don't flirt with me. I might have to jump on top of you" Haha, just kidden. I'm not that FAST!!! So anyways, yeah, work is getting on my nerves. I mean, it's ok but it's just...I don't know, I don't like it. I've applied at Circuit City and I'm thinking about aplying at Best Buy because I'm a huge computer person so I think I would fit in well. Well I would love to help customers and stuff like that. Krogers is alright but I just don't like stalking...maybe I should speak up and maybe they'll change that for me but I doubt it. I think they need stalkers so yeah.

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wberpunk 39, Female, New York, USA - First entry!

Aug 2007
6:52 PM EDT

Steps 1-5: Getting Ready to Let Go Step 1. Admit you have a problem. Although this sounds easy, it often is the hardest step. Why is it that everyone else can see what's wrong, but you don't believe them? Are all those people who love you wrong? No. Your solution to painful feelings has been to control your body through your eating disorder. Now your eating disorder controls you. Admit it: Your life is out of control. Step 2. Believe two things: "Change is possible" and "I deserve to have a better life." Repeat these two statements to yourself, especially the one concerning a healthier, happier existence. Step 3. Make a decision to change. Decide to tolerate whatever feelings come up if you begin to change your behaviors surrounding food and your body. With the right support and the benefit of time, you will be able to tolerate the uncomfortable and unpredictable feelings that accompany change. Step 4. Make an inventory of the problems you need to address. Be honest about the things you do to hurt or punish yourself. Write down every symptom, from how you eat, to how you exercise, to how you punish yourself for eating, to how you try to lose weight, and to how you degrade and criticize yourself and try so hard to be perfect and need no one. All of these are behaviors you need to change. Again, be painfully honest about how you treat yourselfâ€”this inventory will help guide later steps to recovery. Step 5. Share your inventory with someone who can help you. In other words, come clean! Admit your problems and imperfectionsâ€”people will still care about you. In fact, doing so may draw you closer to others, as they will begin to understand the agony you have been living. You won't have to "act" all the time, and you can concentrate on being yourself. Just be sure that the person you share this with really can help. Your doctor may be a good person to start with, but a therapist or dietitian can help you formulate an exact plan for the next steps. Steps 6-12â€”Giving up the Game Step 6. Develop a plan, but keep it simple. A contract needs to include attainable goals and not be overly ambitious or complicated. Otherwise, it will be overwhelming, just as your eating disorder is. Identify one problem and work on that. Do not set yourself up for failure by trying to change everything at once. The plan can include other people. Especially if you are young or living with your family, involving them can help. If they have a clearly defined role in your recovery, they may not get as frustrated and you can all live together more peacefully. An eating disorder is hard on everyone. Step 7. "Fake it till you make it." Changing any behavior is difficult and takes time before you feel better. Sometimes you have to do something for a long time before you sense a change. Try to believe that you're going to feel better, that the anxiety you feel as you take better care of your body will eventually disappear. Gradually it will, but obsessing over it and avoiding change only makes it worse. Step 8. Take life "one day at a time," or even "one meal at a time" or "one hour at a time." If you have trouble meeting your goal, start again. Give yourself another chance. You have probably had your eating disorder for a long time, and the problems leading up to it have been with you even longer. So be patient. Remember: ''Rome wasn't built in a day"; "No pain, no gain." Come up with some other sayings that will help you be more patient with yourself. Very few people can climb straight up a mountain. Step 9. Build in some rewards for your efforts. Recovery is hard work. Be sure to take care of yourself by indulging in things that will make you feel better. Find ways to soothe yourself. Reading affirmations, doing relaxation exercises, participating in favorite activities that are easy on your body will all help your spirits. List these rewards and allow yourself one of them every day. Step 10. Talk about how you feel as you make changes in therapy, in support groups, or in your interactions with trusted friends and family. As you change your behavior, more feelings will surface. To understand how these feelings contributed to your eating disorder, you need to talk, talk, talk. Writing in a journal each day can help you to remember the issues you want to discuss with your therapist. Remember: You can't do this by yourself. Step 11. Keep on changing. Each week take a look at your contract and decide if it is helping you now. Many people with eating disorders have multiple behaviors to change, so take a look at your inventory and decide which problem to attack next. However, it is also sometimes helpful to stay in the same place awhile. If you have worked hard and don't think you can do anything more right now, simply try to maintain the change you have made before moving on again. Step 12. Believe in yourself and give yourself some credit. Acknowledge what you have accomplished, then, when you are ready, refer to your contract and repeat the steps you have accomplished to reinforce your program. Because eating disorders are so complicated and you had to keep your contract simple, it is now time to review your progress and identify another behavior from your inventory to work on. http://www.mirror-mirror.org/eatdis.htm http://www.aliveness.net/index.htm http://users.neca.com/cwildes/ ttp://www.geocities.com/HotSprings/5395/ http://www.healthyWeightNetwork.com/ http://www.hugs.com http://www.healthyeating.com/ http://www.iop.bpmf.ac.uk/home/depts/psychiat/edu/eat.htm

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